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a little fuzzy around the edges
I don’t know if it’s my allergies or just general malaise, but lately I am feeling a little fuzzy, out of focus, slightly dazed.
I keep trying to put my finger on the problem, but I’m having trouble pinpointing anything. Nothing major stands out, life is going along fairly well, I am writing more, creating, working, planning. But there it is, just sitting there, this fuzzy little ball of discontent.
At the moment I’m not quite sure what to do with it. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. Maybe it’s all the writing, the introspection. Maybe it’s the getting closer to fifty. And the hormones that go with it. Maybe it’s the calm before the storm.
A loud, ear-crashing, spine-tingling thunderstorm.
One that knocks the power out and leaves you sitting in the dark with nothing to do but watch nature run its lovely, lonely course.
One that floods the earth with tears of joy and washes everything clean.
One that ends with the sun breaking straight through the clouds to illuminate the rainbow of reason.
That’s what I need.
I’ll think I’ll just sit here and wait.
Comments
This is such a beautiful post and the photo is amazing. I feel like I’m in the same place – so much is going on right now…I just need to let nature take its course.
Posted by: jen | April 5th, 2010 19:59
i love your words…!! ♥ and the image is fantastic!
Posted by: kim klassen | April 5th, 2010 23:18
i was given a copy of the book “reinventing the rest of your life” when i turned 49, and am so grateful! it talks about the changes we women go through around the age of Late-Middle-Age…and that fuzzy little ball of discontent is right there. Linda
Posted by: Linda | April 6th, 2010 04:38
Thanks, I must look for that book…and today, we had a thunderstorm 🙂
Posted by: the blue muse | April 6th, 2010 22:49
Oh…I hate waiting…
The picture and your words are calming really.
Posted by: Vonda | April 6th, 2010 23:25
So beautiful!! I can certainly relate to that fuzziness!!!
Posted by: Marcie | April 7th, 2010 06:38
I get this. You’ve expressed it so well and I’ve been there. Although when I’m being tossed and battered by big seas I wish for calm, too much calm makes me uncomfortable too. It’s a weird feeling isn’t it? I’ll wish a big wild and wooly storm for you, followed by a gorgeous rainbow – so cathartic!
Posted by: kendalee | April 7th, 2010 09:13
Thank you, it is indeed a weird feeling, but like all things, it will pass. Now about that thunderstorm….
Posted by: the blue muse | April 7th, 2010 11:01
ahhh yes, i know just what you’re talking about. something in the back of your mind that you just have to wait until it surfaces & comes into clear view…
Posted by: Anna Rodriguez | April 23rd, 2010 23:33